Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Glee and PostPartum Depression

So if you know me at all you know I’m ADDICTED to Glee!

ADDICTED!!! Like crazy addicted.

However I’m way to zonked at night to pay attention to the show, and usually having coffee dates with my Texan bff Jennifer. So I catch it the next day.

Well often I find a little inspiration from the show, even just the music (and yes Gray and I listen to Glee all day when we’re playing or when we’re out running!! Yes ADDICTED!)

Well last night Blaine sang an amazing version of Fighter by Christina A. I have to say I had totally forgotten about that song. Well it totally hit home this morning.

The person they’re singing about in the song, that how I feel about my PPD. PPD made me a fighter, made me fight for every good day, fight every horrible thought I had about myself, and still do some days.

I hated my PPD when I was in the midst of it, and I tried not to dwel on it because I didn’t want to give it a place in  my life to make a stronghold. I just wanted to work through it and get over it and move on.

But now that I’m having more good days then bad, and I’m feeling back to normal me again I realized that I’m thankful for my PPD. Although I feel like I missed the first year of G’s life because of the fog of PPD, I’m thankful that I  now know that I’m stronger for what I went through.

'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do, I wouldn't know
Just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

So if you’re going through PPD Hell as a friend of mine put it, know that one day you’ll look back and be okay with it, and maybe, possibly be thankful for how much stronger it made you.

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  1. From Rebecca
    Thank you for today's post.This hell has had an extra amount of fury today. It is like you posted just for me. My support group says "this too shall pass." Sometimes that is hard to remember, but it will and when it does I will be stronger

  2. Thanks for this Jac. PPD hell is hard to deal with, but like you said, it can give rewards too. I had a rough year but am starting also to see thorough the haze!

  3. Thanks for this post Jac. Dealing with my own PPD was hell, but as we break through the haze I too can see some of the rewards.
    More power to us!

  4. Found you through Kelly's Korner. I completely understand how you feel. I struggled with PPD for the first year with my first, and to this day I describe it as hell on earth. I also agree with you that it has made me a much stronger, more compassionate person. Going through it you never think you will be "normal" again...but when the fog clears you thank God for all the blessings in your life. Thanks for sharing.

  5. Following from Kellys Korner.

  6. Those first weeks and months after childbirth are tough times, aren't they? My kids are so old, it almost seems like a distant memory.

    Your blog is beautiful, and I wanted to let you know that I nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Award! Check it out here: