Be Still and Know

When I was in my 20s I had to go through a few jaw surgeries. The first was by far the easiest. Just day surgery that turned into one night at the hospital and pain meds and super soft food for a month or so.  The second one not so much. I was in the hospital for a few nights (1 in the ICU and 3 on the ward I think) and my jaw was wired shut for about 8 weeks.

The hardest part was the morning of the surgery. I knew this surgery was more involved ad I knew the pain would be a lot worse and recovery would be hard too. It was the mental part that was hardest on me. The summer before I had no idea what I was getting into; this summer I knew all to well.

So I turned to my worship songs and this one was my theme for that morning and the rest of my recovery.

Since that time I’ve found rest in this song

When the oceans rise and thunders roll

I will soar with you above the storm

Father you are King over the flood

I will be still and know you are God.

Right now I’m facing one of those waits that you never know when they’ll end.

My father is waiting for a new set of lungs. While we were away on vacation earlier this summer my dad was hospitalized and ended up being bumped up the list. That news is both good and bad. Great that he may get his lungs sooner, but it also means he’s not getting better and he couldn’t’ rebound after his hospital visit. Every time I see him I wonder if it’s our last coffee chat or his last snuggle with Gray. When those thoughts pop into my head I have to remember that God is in control and trust in his perfect timing. I have to remember that God knows the numbers of days my dad will have just as he knows the number of hairs on his head.

There will come a day when I’m standing in a hospital waiting room waiting to hear about my dad. Thinking of that moment scares me, but when I still my thoughts and focus on him, my fear melts away and I have peace.

So no I have this printed in my planner, and as the wallpaper on my phone. And you can too. Down load the pdf – or you can email me for the hires jpeg copy too.

Be Still and Know

I'm linking up with Tiffany over at Mrs Pate Writes and Tori from Easoms.com for Worship Wednesday. I know I don't link up with things often but This one is great. I love everyone's journey with different worship songs.